I’ve been thinking a lot lately about evolving and if I am or not. Growth seems to be a key thing that I’ve been looking for this year.
I’m not talking reaching maximum physical density, which I think I am almost at. I’m talking about emotional and spiritual growth or maybe even just these two questions being answered in a positive way:
Am I becoming a better person?
Am I conquering that whole fear-is-holding-me-back thing?
It’s really hard sometimes to take stock of your own growth, so I looked at an ancient LiveJournal blog of mine from this date 14 years ago. FOURTEEN YEARS! How is that even possible.
Anyway, I checked it out and found that I was kind of doing the same thing as I’m doing right now by responding to a meme.
Random Facts
1) I have a Teddy bear with only two legs. I call him Teddy. My friends renamed him Peg Leg after a horrible slumber party accident. Jen Fonteyn you are on notice, babe!
2) I once cried in the vice principal's office and I was a grown-up.
3) I have a super secret project
4) I can write with my left and right hands.
4 Shortcomings
5) No matter how much of a feminist I think I am I still melt if people call me baby. Especially if those people are male and have lowish rumbling voices.
6) If no one else is home I forget to eat.
7) I am not very worldly, it seems.
8) I am phobic about skiing.
4 Habits
9) I exist. I think this is a habit.
10) I check my email whenever I get writers' block
11) I walk the dog three times a day.
12) Every Christmas I make the Playmobile Santa and the Playmobile Mrs. Claus have a little too much fun.
4 Goals
13) To be good at something.
14) To make the world a tiny bit better.
15) To wear a sleeveless dress without feeling naked (in a bad way).
16) To hike the AT.
So, my goals are the same. My habits are almost the same except I’ve kicked checking email and I’m worse about dog walking because Sparty is so arthritic. My shortcomings are the same. My random facts are the same. Those don’t really change, right?
So, have I changed?
Yeah. I think I have. Why? Because I think/hope that I’m becoming a better person and I’m actively trying to keep my fears from holding me back.
How about you?
LINKS FROM LAST WEEK
SOME LINKS!
https://www.cgu.edu/people/paul-zak/
https://pauljzak.com/
The book by Paul Zak
https://hfh.fas.harvard.edu/how-to-flourish
VanderWeele, T.J. (2020). Activities for flourishing: an evidence-based guide. Journal of Positive Psychology and Wellbeing, 4:79-91.